Manifestation or destiny?
As the sun sets on one of the first warm spring days of 2024, I find myself reflecting on a conversation I had a few days ago with a very dear friend. My life is in a pressure cooker of personal growth and awareness, accompanied by profound changes.
Changes that I couldn’t have imagined just six months ago. Choices I never thought I’d have to make and encounters I thought were reserved for others.
The life that is currently unfolding seems eerily similar to what I wrote down in recent years, when I did exercises around formulating goals and creating mood boards. Somewhere, I also felt that I could ‘manifest’ until I’m blue in the face, but if I don’t work on the underlying themes that are currently preventing me from living that life, I won’t make any progress. Even though I believe in the power of thoughts. After all, everything is energy.
SOULS’ DESIRE
“What if what I’ve written down and put on a mood board is an outcome of what has been waiting for me for a long time, and that these images come from my own blueprint or Soul’s Desire? The gold that is already waiting to be discovered within me. And that the question is more about which route I take and what obstacles I encounter along the way, (temporarily) preventing me from discovering the gold,” I asked her.
“Is Destiny, always there? And is it more a question of whether I will get there, and how I will get there, based on the choices I make, my so-called Free Will?”
Thus began a beautiful conversation, which has been with me over the past few days. Especially because I am experiencing deep transformation, which comes from a different place than my rational mind. That rationality now serves my deeper Knowing and Intuition, where a steadfast belief has emerged about the direction for the time to come. What the exact outcome of that direction will be is not 100% clear, and that’s completely okay. There is a mix of curiosity, excitement, and anxiety at times. They come in waves about 20 times a day.
THE LAND OF NOT KNOWING
Dwelling in the Land of Not Knowing is part of leaving behind what I know and not yet arriving at the Destination. Where my familiar anchors and frameworks no longer work, and where I’m reinventing myself. Where I experiment with new perspectives and angles and where I let go of beliefs that are no longer serving me in the here and now. Scary? Sure. But also, very thrilling. Because suddenly I find myself back in the Land of Possibilities. And it feels like I’m writing a new book. I’m not just adding a chapter to the existing book. Curiosity arises. Joy of life surfaces. And a lot of Synchronicity comes into play.
When I shared this with another friend yesterday, she mentioned that she had recently experienced in a Theory-U workshop, that there are many destinations, but one keeps pulling at you. And the question is whether you heed that call or not. Beautiful, right?
My environment is happy for me, thinks along with me, and support comes from all sides, for which I am more than grateful. At times, especially in the beginning, there were also many questions that made me doubt for a moment. Valid questions, for sure, but also partly projection from someone else’s frameworks and beliefs. Nothing wrong with that. But important to keep checking in with myself. What resonates with me? What is true for me?
Am I ready for this leap into the unknown? YES. YES. YES!
THE FIRST STEP
And then things move quickly. Especially when it turns out that the direction I am choosing now is in alignment with my Soul’s Desire. How I know? It flows. Things fall into place. I don’t have to fight for it. It doesn’t feel heavy. At least, not for me right now. The path to it was one of survival, hard work, and resistance. I now feel that it can also be different. That choosing a new direction also involves Surrender, because no, I don’t know all the details and certainly not the outcomes. Nobody knows the outcome. And I notice that it is also less important. All I can do is take a first step, then step 2 will follow naturally.
I invite you to take a step and allow yourself to go on an adventure, to see what life outside the familiar frameworks has to offer you. Make room for your desires, step into the space of Silence to listen to your Inner Voice and see where it wants to take you. It doesn’t have to be a 180-degree turnaround. The most important thing is that you get moving.
Enjoy the ride!
Chantal
